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Showing posts with label free verse. Show all posts
Showing posts with label free verse. Show all posts

Monday, June 23, 2008

..:: The Wilderness ::..

Ryan Becker, June '08

There is a wilderness
where I find myself. Lost.
Unaware of where I go.

There is an obstacle.
Obtrusive. Dejecting. Malign.
Which pollutes the world I know.

It is a fallacious world.
Foreign. Misleading. Abstruse.
Mirage upon mirage.

I fight and climb
to reach higher ground.
But I’m scourged by deceits barrage.

Many battles fought.
Many scars I carry.
Many times I’ve fallen down.

Many answers sought.
Many aspirations - contrary.
Many crosses in the ground.

Alone I walk
battle scarred and bloody
but the blood is not all my own

Cut by the blade,
healed by the sword
and through it all I’ve grown

Still I search for one
whom I know not.
But the promise is to give.

Wearied I progress
down a path of faith.
Towards the point I wish to live.

And the way is narrow.
And the verdancy dense.
And I’m cut by thorn and limb.

And the night is dark.
And the fog is thick.
And the source of light is dim.

But though the path is slick
and the obstacles many.
I have not given up.

I clutch to my staff
and push through the labyrinth.
To drink devotions cup.

And I focus on the day
and I search for the beauty.
That ancient words have prophesied.

And I pray for the one
who will some day free me
from the many tears I’ve cried.

Thursday, January 31, 2008

..:: blackness within ::..

I smile.
I smile often.
Sometimes I do not know why.
I kid myself and say it is because
  my heart is always happy
  and that that happiness is reflecting on the outside.
But that is not always the case.
Today I don’t feel happiness.
Today I feel stress.
Today I feel loneliness.
Today I feel vanquished
  by the winds of life and love
  or the lonesome lack thereof.

Still I smile.
Why do I smile?
Why can’t I show people
  the way I truly feel inside.
Why can’t I share my sadness
  with those that pretend to care?
Why do I try to shine
  when there is blackness within?

Who am I trying to protect?
Is it them or me
  that I am trying to shelter?
Why do I try to give
  when all I feel is emptiness inside?
Why won’t people accept
  what little I have to share?
Why do people only take notice
  when the end game profits them?

Still - I fight the blackness
  and shine a spiritless smile
  in spite of my chagrin.
But as the smile shines
  the hypocrisy confines
  and the blackness grows within.

I cannot help but smile.
I guess that is just what I do.
I have faith that tomorrow
  will reward today’s joy.
But thus far that’s been a lie.
So when I look at you I smile
  though deep inside I cry.